But beyond that, for me, coming out of addiction, it really scars you. You do things and you say things, for sometimes years, that you just deeply regret. And I had such a twisted image of myself.
Part of the reason I worked with the homeless and part of the reason I was doing everything I could do to follow God—some of it was really a false motivation of trying to earn God’s approval and His love.
A lot of it was driven by this thought that, Man, I have made so many mistakes; it’s going to take a lot to make up for all of this.
So for me, realizing that I was as truly loved as I was and that God had gifted me at the macro level was huge. But at the micro level, it was about discovering the unique identity and gifts that He had given me.
I know that my strongest spiritual gift is evangelism. And for whatever reason, God has just wired me up to help people find their way home.
